Solitude.

I need to learn how to be more independent. I feel like there are certain people that need to be in my life in order for me to stand on my own two feet. I should really learn how to just trust myself and make sure that I don't put my all into someone so that when they leave, it won't affect me. I don't mind being dented, but I don't want to be broken. Something I also need to learn is how to adjust to change. I can't just expect everything to be all good and dandy my entire life, shit happens. I should just be thankful that for a short period of time everyday was a perfect day. I didn't wake up grumpy, I woke up with a huge smile on my face, 100% sure that my day was going to be flawless, just like yesterday. What I didn't know that finally, I'll wake up, expecting a day even better than the previous one, and found myself in tears by the end of it. Suddenly, I get a second chance and everything's all good again, until I start to really think. This change is affecting everything and no matter what nothing's ever gonna be back to normal. And I can't have that. I just wish that whatever happens, I'll be fine. I want to be able to handle everything without needing anyone to hold me up because in the end, the only person that will never let me down is myself.