Transformation.

Feels good to know where I stand :)

"I know it's hard on a rainy day, you want to shut the world out and just be left alone but don't run out on your faith, 'cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand and what you've been up there searching for forever is in your hands."

So today will be a goooood day =) w/family. Tomorrow, Sammy, & Gabby day :o Exciteeeed.

Decisions.

Priorities.

So, as of last week, I have been going out every single day. Which is not good, knowing what I've been doing. I think it's my way of coping, a little, but also as of last week I have been neutral nelly. I have very little to NO feelings at all. I kinda just go with my instincts. Wake up with "How do I feel today?" but never really getting an answer.

I have a C in biochem, which is totally no surprise. Not as big a surprise as my A- in fucking honors english! Suck on that, bitches :) But that's not as big a surprise that my sister has a higher GPA than me :/ 3.14? Life's going downhillllll. Byebye San Diego State =(

I'm really looking forward to that one thing, bahahahha you should know, Samuel Breglia.


So I finally kicked it w/Camille, Arianne, & Veronica :o
It's been a while, girlssss. A long, long while.

And I still haven't decided. Tahoe/LA? I'm going more towards just staying in UC & kickin it with everyone. So Jason also wants me to go to San Diego b/c I haven't visited his white ass in a while, but we'll see bout thattttt =)

kbye!

Irresponsible.

So I'm totally slacking off in everything...fuck. I'm gonna die in Ms. AA's class forreal. That damn project dude. I haven't done shit in that class for 3 days. Spring break, come rescue me!

Sanguine.

Nothing can ever be just right. I can't just be on one side and be happy. I have to suffer either way. I don't see what I'm supposed to do anymore, it's like nobody is letting me be happy. There are people that can take pain and there are people that can't. And I'm sure I can't. I'm always sad, I don't know why. But I'm pretty good at pretending.


^^^My feelings in a song.

Its cool, I'm positive as fuck =)

So we watched Passion of the Christ, oh damn that shit was terrible. How can people even do that to someone else. They'd rather free a notorious murderer than a man who claims to be the messiah, but harms no one? They put him through so much pain and it's hella on screen, my back hurt from watching that shit even though I wasn't being whipped.

I left early though, cause it was my uncles bday. I ALMOST finished my reflections but I ran out of ink on my computer and I wasn't about to draw it ahahahaha. I hella bullshitted on it.

So I've been trynna see if I should go back on myspace or not, but yeah. And I'm trynna figure out how to subscribe to people on this, idk how LOL.

Anyway, that's all for today =) Good day!